That has always been your strategy, break people down, make them weak and powerless, and then have your way with them. But guess what? It's not going to work this time. Not anymore!
You say you want me to go for rehab, but you are the same Ned who always wanted me high because, in your words, I'm "sexier" when I'm high. You liked me that way because it made me wild and romantic exactly how you wanted me to be.
Why don't you also tell them how you force yourself on me whenever I say no?
Why don't you tell them how you lock me up, seize my phones, and suddenly declare me "mentally unstable" the moment I say I no longer want to be in this relationship. But once I change my mind just to get out of that locked room, suddenly I'm fine again, I'm no longer mentally unstable, and apparently not in need of rehab anymore.
Why don't you also tell them that all your wives and ex wives are on drugs? And can you be kind enough to explain to them why that is?
Why don't you also tell them how you lock me up and Doctors to inject me with drugs meant for people with bipolar disorder?
Why don't you tell them how you take my phones for weeks just because you hate that I talk to my family a lot.
You have never seen me act incoherent, stumble, or lose control, so just stop. Every problem we have had started when I no longer wanted you, whether sober or even high. Stop using the "drugs" narrative to create distraction. Tell people the truth. I understand shaa. You are feeling rejected and hurt, and you are struggling to make peace with the fact that it's all over.
I have a lot more to say but let me just stop here for now, I can only thank God that I found strength in that same house you tried to destroy me.
I just feel so ashamed that all these had to come out in the messiest way
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